Dearest Mommy


Love letter to my beautiful mother who is my strength and my everything, which I wrote a few weeks before I moved to Canada.



Dearest Mommy,                  



For three decades, I’ve clung onto you – right from when you carried me in your womb two weeks past my due date, to routinely getting up with me at four in the morning when I revised for all my exams.



Despite holding me so close to your heart, you are bravely letting me go far to pursue my dreams, and unlike all parents, you’ve always wanted what I’ve wanted.



Now when I am standing on the threshold of moving miles away from you…there are interspersed moments of panic when I think of not waking next to you or not being enveloped in your reassuring warm hugs. But even in these agonizing instances of worry, your firm and determined eyes comfort me.



No matter the distance I seek, I know I can bask in the knowledge that you will continue to bless and watch over me from afar.



My greatest source of strength and inspiration, Ushama I love you so much!!!



Your paapa always, Sharan

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